Today

My IUI was  on 8th December 2012

Its 19th December 2012

It means its been 11 days past IUI for god-knows how many cycle for the past 2 years

The result is BIG FAT NEGATIVE

I'm not putting hope for this cycle..

Still continuing peeing on sticks like a mad woman 

Will keep on peeing until AF shows her way towards me and breaks my heart...

Breaks my heart again and again and again..

Mourning for 2-3 days and Mr. Harvey getting sick and sick looking me turning myself into crazy woman

AF supposed to come visit me at 25th December...another 6 days to go...

I think my AF will come a bit late..I can feel it..She likes to toy with my feeling..

I know she will be late this month just to see me wrecking myself upside down..

I'm sure cause I took Duphaston which also will delay my ugly Aunt Flow..

I started to feel cramp like AF..shoot.. I hate this..

Nevertheless, don't want to beat myself up..

Tomorrow, I will start my diet regime.I'm getting and  fat-ing myself..thanks to all the hormones pills

I gained 3 kgs..WTF!!

Really need to diet..Mr. Harvey started to call me fat-ass ... I'm fucked!!

I really don't want to pretend myself.."hey..I'm Okay..I'm fine"

I'm not fine...I'm not in good mood..I'm fat, I feel flabby, my wardrobe doesn't like me anymore..

2moro..no more  about "pregnant? not preganant? gila? ke x gila?"

I will strive to something that I know I could achieve it if I put enough effort..

DIET...Put effort ...result 100% guaranteed.!!

see u brenda..

xoxo