Eleken Eternal Beauty... Part 1 : Finally she's arrived!

Hola soulsista!!!

FINALLYYYYYY!!!

HAIL TO THE QUEEN!!!

My ultimate deary that I've been waiting for..

 Elken Eternal Beauty..yippiee!! 

Cost me RM1,990.. Investing for myself is totally worth it!

Now I'm not sure whether I should use it during my confinement day or just gamble and using it now..

Maybe I should just wait...Beauty has no shortcut..right..?

Another one month-ish for me to experience the result.. :D :D :D

p/s: Will update the 'before' and 'after' photo in this mid December.. heheh :P

See ya Brenda!

xoxo

Shopping gives me tranquility moment

Hola Soulsista,


I just bought one whole set MAC cosmetics.. *O.o Bila dah start lalok..duit la mencurah curah!

Frankly speaking, I'm not a big shopper..seriously...my last window shopping at Pavvy or KLCC ...?
Hmmm...more than 2 years ago? I'm not sure why I just don't have the appetite to shop..maybe I was toooo focusing spending my money for fertility treatment...


Having said that...shopping actually gives me some sort of tranquility especially when you have lots of cash in your hand..*Yep, I don't have credit card, I'm still siwping my card..we called it debit...:)


Since debit card was introduced, I was so clinging to it! ... I hate bringing thousand of cash in my wallet..hence the debit card is my savior to swipe and knowing that I'm using cash instead of credit money..

Receipt...beli apa yang mampu..

Make up from a-z

Make up using MAC..biasa2 je..muka ghemok!..*Opps I'm not wearing scarf, I believe all the viewers are from our kaum.. :) 

Big fat lady..Gain 27 kgs..8 months pregnant. lives alone and surviving it..!!

*pat to myself...work it baby..it is not the end of the world....The world will keep on moving regardless of whatever condition you are going through.. 


Next hunting...Elken Eternal Beauty...


Mission Impossiblepossible: I wanna beat Rozita Che Wan after finished my confinement day...*Boley tak.?? 

That was me (center) 4 years ago..I'm gonna be much better than this pic ..Minus the sari, minus the visible naked skin and add on my scarf ... :*)

See ya Brenda..xoxo

Painting my home...I'm getting better.. :)

Hi Brenda,

I just repainting my house... :D yeay!

The things is.. I have mistaken choose wrong color for my living room...I think I just burnt my eyes..hehhe..with the help of tukang painter..We managed to blend the bright yellow color and turned it to bananaish- color..

What have I done..! Argh my eyess!! burning!!

Err...Welcome to kindergarten?

Repainting process...Sorry Lan, I know you must be annoyed at me.. :P

Okay better...I think..?

Night time....Love the Tiffany Blue tho.

Jeng jeng jeng....my master bedroom...

From this....

To this..!! Yet to decorate.. :P

Now...just painting my room and turning it to Princess-Pink-Castle mood....Girlie time..! *Yea, bit messy..but I'm gonna put some accesories to this lovely room..maybe my own self-potrait drawing with my lil angel..hehehe..

Thats all for now Brenda..


Goodnite...

xoxo :)

3 weeks... and my very 1st step..

Brenda,

It has been three weeks, surviving this tragedy..

I need to move on.. Have to move on...

My mind was strayed this few weeks... and I have forgotten about my baby girl....

Ya Allah, permudahkan lah perjalanan hidup ku...permudahkan lah kelahiran anakku...

Moving on is hard...but staying in the misery is harder...coz it won't lead to anywhere...the pain won't go away until I'm ready to let it go...

I need to take my 1st step...for the sake of my baby and myself..

Life is hard now...Its time for me to search my own happiness instead of mourning and hoping miracle and happiness knocking on my door...they won't... I need to work it to get all the happiness in this world...

1st step : It needs to start at the place that represent both me and the past... Our home...

It's not going to be 'our' home anymore...eventho I prayed hard for it...Its all in God's hand..

I'm going to change it to 'my' home....

Be strong Izzy....be strong for the baby... She deserves to have all the happiness in this world..



xoxo...

Devastated..!!!!

Brenda!!!


I feel like dying..I'm all alone...heavily pregnant...separated with Mr. Harvey...I don't know if I cud survive all by myself..

I don't think I could save my marriage, I gave up...He gave up...How could he...!!! I'm almost 8 months pregnant!!!!

Its been more than 2 weeks we've been separated!!!.

He's out from our house..my family is now taking in charge of my life, and I just can't abandon them since I need them during this fragile moment.... Mr Harvey asked me to choose between him or my family..How could he gave me that option! I can't just simply choose like that!


There's no tears left...No matter how much I cried, destruction is so severe, I'm afraid to ever think about it..

All I could think of is my unborn daughter..How is she going to face this chaos. forget about me..all I'm thinking now is my daughter!! Born without her father by her side... I couldn't believe I'm going through this....Ya Allah....


If is not because of her, I think I've given up my life..I'm not strong Brenda...I just lost the love of my life who doesn't care about this problem..He just left me and never turn his back on  me....

AM I GOING TO SURVIVE THIS TRAGEDY..??? 

WILL I GET BACK MY HAPPINESS AND COURAGE TO MOVE ON??

AM I ABLE TO GIVE ALL THE HAPPINESS TO MY DAUGHTER..

O Allah....please be with me....your the ONLY ONE that I could pour my heart out...