3 weeks... and my very 1st step..

Brenda,

It has been three weeks, surviving this tragedy..

I need to move on.. Have to move on...

My mind was strayed this few weeks... and I have forgotten about my baby girl....

Ya Allah, permudahkan lah perjalanan hidup ku...permudahkan lah kelahiran anakku...

Moving on is hard...but staying in the misery is harder...coz it won't lead to anywhere...the pain won't go away until I'm ready to let it go...

I need to take my 1st step...for the sake of my baby and myself..

Life is hard now...Its time for me to search my own happiness instead of mourning and hoping miracle and happiness knocking on my door...they won't... I need to work it to get all the happiness in this world...

1st step : It needs to start at the place that represent both me and the past... Our home...

It's not going to be 'our' home anymore...eventho I prayed hard for it...Its all in God's hand..

I'm going to change it to 'my' home....

Be strong Izzy....be strong for the baby... She deserves to have all the happiness in this world..



xoxo...

Devastated..!!!!

Brenda!!!


I feel like dying..I'm all alone...heavily pregnant...separated with Mr. Harvey...I don't know if I cud survive all by myself..

I don't think I could save my marriage, I gave up...He gave up...How could he...!!! I'm almost 8 months pregnant!!!!

Its been more than 2 weeks we've been separated!!!.

He's out from our house..my family is now taking in charge of my life, and I just can't abandon them since I need them during this fragile moment.... Mr Harvey asked me to choose between him or my family..How could he gave me that option! I can't just simply choose like that!


There's no tears left...No matter how much I cried, destruction is so severe, I'm afraid to ever think about it..

All I could think of is my unborn daughter..How is she going to face this chaos. forget about me..all I'm thinking now is my daughter!! Born without her father by her side... I couldn't believe I'm going through this....Ya Allah....


If is not because of her, I think I've given up my life..I'm not strong Brenda...I just lost the love of my life who doesn't care about this problem..He just left me and never turn his back on  me....

AM I GOING TO SURVIVE THIS TRAGEDY..??? 

WILL I GET BACK MY HAPPINESS AND COURAGE TO MOVE ON??

AM I ABLE TO GIVE ALL THE HAPPINESS TO MY DAUGHTER..

O Allah....please be with me....your the ONLY ONE that I could pour my heart out...

Kedai Buku 1Malaysia (1Malaysia Book Store)

Hola soulsista!!


Kedai Buku 1 Malaysia...hmm I must say... not bad..not bad at all..

I just bumped Kedai Buku 1Malaysia while fill up my tank. Quite exclusive for 'government' initiative, I must say..I just bought 6 pocket fairy tales series and one mini 'ABC Animals'..

Pocket fairy tales: Each cost me only RM 1.65 and 'ABC Animals' only cost me RM 5.85..*Mari Mari..murah nii

The plastic bag

Cheap aite??? 

Total: RM 15.75... thihi

So sorry,  forgot to bring my phone to snap photos of the store..but its near Sri Rampai ,Setapak. Next month I will be visiting it again and I promise snap some...

Now I have six different fairy tales for my lil angel to listen to..hehe... *It is good for her brain by telling stories to her even she's now in my womb.. :D

The 'After Deco' cot!

hello Brenda!!
not so much of decoration..with RM99 cot , manage to decorate

from this.....

to this!!!

boleh la... heheheh

Baby Cot cost me only RM99...?

Spotted!!

Just found cheapest baby cot ever

RM 99 from IKEA...ha ha ha..

Such a cheapskate.. *Like I care? :P

The reason being why I did not put baby cot as one of my priority:

Do we REALLY need it ???? -WITH BIG QUESTION MARK!!

Sneak peek :baby cot DIY Ikea.. :D

Harvey unpack - try & error

Confused with the instruction given hun?

75% completed..

Taraaa...Done!

Next is my turn to decorate necessary things for this cot.. to make it looked expensive..hehehe