hola hola holii

Hola soulsista,

Im back!

Gonna resume my work this coming week..erkk been absence for 3 months..rasa malasnya nak kerja!!! boleh tak , tak payah work work tapi duit masuk..huhuuh!

So my lil neyra dah 3mo..yeay..bambam sangat2 ..

peekabooo!!!

Ibu, ur ketiak so masam hokek!

Im still in settling my divorce but I'm proud to say I am A single mother..and... its not that bad at all..I gain my happiness in my own way and having Neyra , makes me stronger *My mind keep on spinning 'Stronger' by Christina Aguilera.. hehhe.. "Thanks for making me..FIGHTER!"

Being single and having a child makes me feel complete and I don't need a man in my life to bug me with unnecessary things...my mind is free, full of wide space which I need to fill up with good things and great adventures!

The difficulties is now, not having Neyra in my arms nights and days since she is now dekat kampung with my parent to take care of , temporarily...

Iols tak berani nak letak anak dekat nursery, babysitter here in KL..so many horrendous story nowadays..takpo la, den letak kat parent dulu..kalau upah bibik , or babysitter nanti dia melekat ngan strangers wat po...baik dia rapat ngan parent den.. *tetiba tuka bhaso..sejak2 waris most wanted rembau neh..eheks

For now, I am back and forth balik ganu on  weekly basis..*naik bas sajo..xmampu aih flight kena spend 2k for weekly basis in 1 month..uiii idok ler..Well, since dah naik bas, I can feel that my body is getting older..waduh sakit tulang blakang, tulang bontot, semua tulang lah pokoknya..

But, whenever I reach Neyra in my arms..wah hilang rasa ngilu tulang tu..Happy tak terkata la kisahnya..I feel like I'm the luckiest mom in the world for having her as my daughter..hihi

ok best part dah habis cerita..worst part..

Bila dah balik KL, masuk rumah, my home is empty and pikiran ni asyik ingat Neyraaa je..sob sob..

Thank god..ada WeChat....lalalalala

I love u Wechat!

Every night I will comm her even she doesnt know how to response yet, but I know she could make an eye contact with me via wechat..sronotnyaaa!

Being alone is not easy, really not easy..But its manageable..I have few activities that could help me not to think about all the unnecessary things..one of the activities is:

yes! GYM GYM GYMMM

I was gymoholic few years back, hmm.. stop doing that since I WAS so busy being a DEVOTED WIFE..no time for myself, but now...its time for me to love MYSELF...!

I just hired a trainer to help me in achieving my objective to get my before-met-him weight ...so... dengan penuh ikhlas dan tutup mata, Iols enrolled 86 sessions with my personal trainer..cost me around RM7k -ish..*Hameks kau..huhuhu

So gonna get my killing meletop body tentatively in August..*Harap2 berjayo la..banyak dah den invest ni..


lepas tu iols dapat la body camni...

Kompem jantan larik tengok iols..seramm

hehehe..Im so into muscle lately but idokler sampai badan cam kat atas ni..ini namanya takde kije sangat..dah obsessed ni..hahaha

Anyways,

My gym is inside Sogo, Level 8 , peakphysique..best okay...

With 70% cleaneating diet and 30% work out..I hope my dream will come true this coming August, just nice before Raya so I could wear cantik cantik baju raya sedondon with my lil Neyra..hihihi

lepas tu boleh la amik selfie camni..

Sumpah dapat body camni..Sultan Brunei pun masuk meminang..!

Dapat body camni..Jessica Alba pun nangis tengok k..hahaha  

Takpe berangan...Shoot for the moon, at least x dapat, you will be among the stars!! hikss

See ya when I see ya!

xoxo,
Brenda