38 weeks and checking in!

Hola soulsista,

Simple update as I am now being warded. Using tab to update, so tak boleh upload sana sini ..

Anyways, It's final...I'm not going through my induce plan..sob sob...

Instead, I will have ceaserean tomorrow morning!! Gulp!

Why czer? Long story *tak long mana pun! Saja gedix..

I will update to uols later okay, reason being why I have to go through czer and need to kiss goodbye to my normal delivery dream..sobs

26.11.2013, 10 am. This where my new life begins...


Doa kan keselamatan me and my precious baby ...

Love u all mommies!!


See ya!

 xoxo!

Why I love Instagram - Cute Embroidered for my baby!

Hola Soulsista,

This is why I looove Instagram (IG) so mushhhh ! - I've found many interesting things at my fingertips..I could just stared at my tablet ,scrolled up, down, clicked here there and found so many things.. *buta technology..jakun technology..macam ni lah bila dah excited!

So mommies,

Today, I bumped into one interesting IG. This lady I must say... very talented, gifted, and know how to channel her creativity and passion into successful business...


Jeng3x

Cantik tak uols... I want I want I want!!

Drooling...!

Ah so cute for birthday gift!

Feel like eating this!..lol

Chop! Super cute!

Ouh la la!

I just ordered 3 things,

Rompers, and booties .. Diff name of course

Pillow..Aww..but not this name.. Btw, Opi is one of  popular kid in IG.. Check out @atitaharis 

Rompers and booties (RM50)

Pillow busuk (RM35)

Cost me only RM85? *I loikkeee!


I'm going to pay the amount tomorrow and guess what, after payment I will be in the waiting list, and the items will only be delivered to me  in Mid - End December..*Hot demand okay. Well... patience is a virtue...kellas kau maria..!


So apa laie mommies..serang lah!

Oh ya, you can IG at @somethinglovablebynang or you can go to http://www.somethinglovablebynang.com.my/home  for more infos..!

See ya,

xoxo
Brenda

What to pack in your hospital bag - My way

Hola Soul sista!!

Anyways!

It's time to gather together all the essentials!! So try to have your bag packed by the time you are about 35-36 weeks.. ;)

Hospitals has their own policies about what you are allowed to bring with you when you have your baby. For me , I would definitely bring my own pillows and blanket..cause I looovvvveee my sleep so bad... :P . *Bantal hospital selalu keras and tak ada bau rumah..so tak ada feel lah ..Mampu? tetap nak bawak bantal bulu angsa..Ingat nk vacation ke..lol?

If you want, pack two bags: one for labor and the hours immediately after your baby is born, and another for post natal ward...  But for me, I just packed all mom's and baby's in one bag..*Sonang kerja u ols..

My bag is not big ..For me, you just bring ONLY necessities...*to avoid misplaced, hilang, tertinggal..pfft..~


1st ! 
...THE BAG...
My bag is very simple, no such thing as Diva, stylish, branded.. Some mommies prefer to have branded bag..*Reputation u ols..hehe

Bought it less than RM40, I think?

Others might looking hard suitcase.. *Hello, hospital is the journey..NOT Holland..

As for me, why you need to invest  so much? Just buy something that you can use for the same purpose in the future, for example , to put your baby's things when you send her or him to the babysitter or newborn taska? RIght?

BUT...

It will be an exception , if you are using your existing branded bag, or hard suitcase ... *sebab tak ada invest apa apa la kan.?. cough* cheapskate*cough

2nd! What's in the bag?

...Mommy's thing -My way...

Tadaaa!

Okay, skipped the bag..from your top left :

1. Manual pump by Unimom Allegro (the electric duo pump  I will be using it during my confinement.. later review yeh)

2. Maternity pad, I just bring 4-5, in case you are not comfortable with the pad provided by hospital

3. Socks.. (yes and please bring along your sweater)

4. 2 nursing bra, and breast/bra shield (In case you have produced milk..)

5. Batik and your favorite pajamas... bring 2-3 , you never know how long it takes for you to stay there.

5. The documents: Your GL, yours and husband's  I/C copy, Surat Nikah (Copy and Original).If you wanted to go Jabatan Pendaftaran Negara to register your baby's name right after you giving birth...If not, still bring them along..jussssttt in case.. :)

6 (Not in the photo) : Your phone and charger, your magazines, Your tablet, your toiletries and make up kit.. *haih..beranak pun sempat nak berbedak..Penting for photo captured okay!

I think that's all for mom's essentials..

3rd! What's in the bag?

...Baby's things...-  My Way jugakk...

Chak!

From your top left :

1. Baby outfit .. ( 2 simple pajamas)

2. 3 Baby binder/ barut and traditional bedung

3. 4-5 Newborn pampers (Usually private hospital will provide this)

4. 2-3 pairs of booties and mittens, 1 sock and 2 baby's hat

5. 1 bottle

6. 1 Towel (Usually private hospital will provide this)

7. 1 Baby Wrap/ Snuggle/ blanket 

8. 2 Pacifiers

9. Baby's travel toiletries (yang penting minyak cap yuyi, baby powder and cream diapers..)

I guess that's all the essentials that you need to bring along to hospital.. any additional? Up to your comfort level.. ;)

See ya !!

xoxo

Brenda

37 weeks..Haiyaa

Hola Soulsista,

Here goes,

Last Mestrual Period measurement: 37 weeks
U/Sound: Head: 38 weeks, Femur bone(tulang peha): 38weeks++
Weight: 3.516kg ... +/- 500gram... (There's possibilities she's weighing 4kg..!) *unlikely..NO!

From my doc's punya experience, he estimated that her weight is around 3.2-3.3kgs..

Bad news, she's not dropping YET!..*not a chance mama...! 

Doc Jaafar told me that, there's no use of me inducing if the baby still not dropping *Wah bleh rap plak rhythm ni..hehe

Most unlikely, I'm not gonna deliver this week..25th November pun belum tentu!.. Next appointment pun just to check whether the baby is dropping before proceed with anything else .. hermm..

P/s: Kesian my mom, came down all the way from Terengganu..konon2 on standby...kesian kucing2 dia kat kampung..lol...

MODE: ANXIOUS, CURIOUS, TIRED!!

see ya Brenda..
xoxo

Waiting for my 37 weeks.. Bila nak beranak ni...

Soulsista...

Risau nya saya....I think my baby is getting bigger.!!.Felt her elbow keep on jabbing me..at particular place pulak tu..I think I have a bruise on that place.. *from inside..hehe

Last week she was 3.4 kg..can you believe that..*Itu la merungut sangat.. kan dah besar..

This morning my dad brought diabetic toolkit to check my sugar level. Just in case, if I have high sugar level it might give us the answer to her rapid growth

The kit macam ni la rupanya..

Consist of:

1. Sugar level calculated tool (taram je term ni..hehe)

2. Alcohol

3. Poking tool? (Cucuk dekat hujung jari , the blood will come out... tak sakit pun)

4. Cotton swap

5. Strip 

After my dad poking (?) my finger, a small amount of blood came out. Then, he took the blood and put it onto strip and calculated it by inserting the strip into the calculated tool..*Lebih kughang macam tu lah

The level was 5.1 which indeed very normal..*pheww

But the pheww was only last for a moment, after that I felt anxious as I know now for sure... that my baby is big because of she IS just big! 

I kept on thinking, how to maintain her weight to not go too far ahead...

a) By me not eating?

b) Or by me stop taking my Milo drinks?

c) Ermm..Exercising ? *duhh?? huahuahua..!

The truth is , there's no solution, (dah nak beranak kot..) except I have to cut down my sugary food.. *Ah my milo ice..Ah my Ice Tea..these drinks always makes me smile and makes me feel like in heaven...

My next appointment will be this Monday, and seriously I really can't wait to check on her.. *ehem..her weight particularly..huhuh

While typing this, my baby keep on jabbing, wiggling, left right which makes me again wonder..

"Is my uterus accommodate her like 5 stars hotel,  b'coz she seems vigorously happy in there...herm..."

Come night, I will have this difficulties to breath because every time she moves, she is literally took my breath away.. *Saya penghidap Asthma 

Statement of the night....

"BILA NAK JUMPA MAMA NI SAYANG...?"

"BILA NAK BERANAK NI...?"

huhuhuhu......

See ya Brenda

Teaser 2: My upcoming 'baby'

Hola Soulsista,

 Join me at my Instagram: @belladiyosa 

 Stay tuned!! !! 

xoxo!

Brenda

Teaser 1: My upcoming 'baby'

Hola Soul sista...


Teaser for you hot ladies out there.... :)

COMING SOON...!

IG : @belladiyosa 

36 weeks 2 days Oh my my!

Hola soul sista!

According to my LMP, I'm 36weeks 2 days,

U/S measurement: 38 weeks.. *gulp

I'm super freaking out right now... remember that I've been complaining about my baby was not growing.. just maintaining her cute 2.5 kg?

Well, I think she's being a very good listener and tried not to worry me much..

Last 2 weeks, her weight was 2.5 kg.. And today her weight is 3.4 kg..  *what!!

Spontaneously, I was whispering to myself...
"Tak kan ceaser kot....camne nak kurus...."

And my doctor interrupting, 
"Ceaser la boleh buat kurus"

And I was like ding~a~dong
"Mana boleh doc..ceaser xleh bengkung..I need to lose 30kg-35kg.hmm...it seems impossible.."

He paused and just laughed..
"Who told you, that you cant wearing bengkung if undergone ceaser?..u can wear it after a week, just dont put all the herbs on top.. put it on after 2 weeks.. "

"and..you don't have to rush to get slimmer..just do it in a healthy way.."

SONANG NYA KALAU ADA MINDSET CAMTU...! 

Anyway, we have discussed the birth plan.. Me and Doc agreed  to induce me on 25 November IF...if, the baby maintaining this weight for another 2 weeks.

Next check up will be on 18 November..IF , if the baby weighing more than 3.5- 3.7, the induce plan will be pushed forward to earlier date ..(If I wanted to try normal birth..) kalau tak...merasa la belah perut.. *Cryyy


See ya!

xoxo

My Wishlist after Confinement

Holla Soulsista,

Its 3.46 am in the morning.. Lately, it is hard for me to sleep well... maybe too much of thinking about my future, my labor, my nervousness, my haywire days..Nevertheless, I am still sleeping almost 8 hours daily without fail *Dah start cuti kan...so membuta la..

Em.. the title seems funny right? Cause I'm not even having my labor yet..*isk nervous la pikir

So might as well, I just skipped the stressful subject and moving on with the 'after' plan...*hehe

Here goes!!

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1. Losing my 30kg baby weight (Of course!)

2. Testing my Elken Product (during confinement day) , and hopefully succeeded in transforming myself! *Baru la berani nak promote after that kan?

3. To call the VP and checked the result of my interview since he asked me to call him after finished my maternity leave *I'm praying for that..

4. My ultimate goal: Completing my business online..my other 'baby' project that I've been planning for the last 2 months, and hope all the materials needed will be completed and can be uploaded in this blog, instagram, and Facebook page.. :D

Mommies and ladies out there..please please support my wishlist! I am looking forward to open my new 'book of life' and  achieving my dreams that I have left since forever.. My dreams that will include me and my Neyra!

:D

See ya!!

xoxo

Hanis Zalikha: Letting Go

I'm loving this post...true indeed...


Hanis Zalikha: Letting Go:

Choosing baby's name

It is not easy...


Picking the right name for your child is a daunting task. It will stick with them for life! Sooo.. the pressure IS on! And while some parents have strict rosters of appropriate names you can choose from, but for me and Mr. Harvey almost anything goes. With all the options, it can be extremely overwhelming.

But since I have separated with Mr. Harvey... I think he doesn't mind by me making a bit alteration on our baby girl's name...as long as, the name has good meaning..


I will remain her initial name with our original plan which is,
"NEYRA" The name is taken from Kurdish language which means, rich soil (tanah subur)

As for her middle name, I am a bit confused whether to stick of what Mr Harvey has suggested/ dictated which,

"ARYANA" The name is derived from Greek's which means, very holy (sangat suci)

Or to change it to my preference , which is,

"OLIVYA"The name is derived from English / Latin's which means, Olive Tree (Pokok Zaiton)

The combination would be,

Neyra Aryana = Holy and rich Soil (Tanah suci yang subur)

or

Neyra Olivya = Olive Tree on rich soil (Pokok Zaiton di tanah subur)

To make it more fun (to myself of course) , I came out with this textgram graphic..

Decision, decision!!


See ya Brenda!

xoxo

Testing my make up....

Hola soul sista,


Being alone is not easy..cause you have this tendency not to do any activities.. but day dreaming , mind wandering here and there.. as a result..you end up being

Lazy Couch potato!

So instead of being fat lazy potato....might as well I just ,

<Sharping my old skills> *skill la sangat!

Make up

I'm not saying I was a make up artist before. *I wish!! .But I love trying new things.. watching youtube, experiment myself with the beautiful colors.. but that hobby was sooo history..since I was to busy being a wifey to him..


So for a sneak preview..!!

Not much difference pun..blerghh

I should buy falsies....hish!

I'm gonna re-size this image to potrait size and put it in my living room
*Cam chomelll jek....Cam Chantekk jekk!! lol

See ya Brenda!

xoxo

Omigod...what's that..?? It's STRETCHMARKS!!

Hola soulsista,

I'm so bumped, all the efforts of me, religiously putting bio oil la, tanamera virgin coconut oil la, Palmer cream and stretchmarks lotion  la..were down to the drain...

.......another 2-3 weeks of my pregnancy's story...and I thought to myself.......

Yahoooo!! No stretchmarks people! Jangan Zeles...!

-SILENT MODE-

krik kruk..

krik kruk..

krik kruk..

.......

Drop dead...I was totally and absolutely wrong!! Dang Dang!.. *Ahhh I'm so naive to think that I' m one of the luckiest woman who could escape from this nightmare...tidak dek non..kalau dah genetik..genetik jugak...~


I've just noticed having this 'beautiful art' on my tummy when I was about taking my bath.. I was like..

"why my tummy felt so tighten, and why I felt my skin so itchy..?"

I was not so much into looking at my body in front of the mirror lately.. after few months of not staring thoroughly inch by inch of my body ...Just now I stood  naked in front of my 'favorite' mirror.. and voila ~~

"Shit..apa yang yang macam akar kayu ni... no no no no!!!!"

Yes, mommies..I was hysterically screaming.. sampai my bibik knocked my door macam nak pecah pintu.. *very concern bibik comel ku ni..


"Kak kenapa kak, sudah nak beranak ke!!?

"err x ada apa sumi..terkejut tengok badan sendiri je.."


*Haih..if I was about to labor pun..Sumi ni bleh buat apa...bukan pandai drive pun..lol


So anyways..Enough of being so not in the mood... I just snapped my 'lovely-cute -beautiful' tummy for you mommies and gals out there ..*kot kot for your future reference kan.. hehehe

Stretchmarks Exhibit 1: Left side

Exhibit 2 : Right side..see my tummy..about to explode!!

Come to think of it..

Well.. I don't mind having all these..I'm carrying  my beautiful loved ones inside... I don't mind having stretchmarks all over my body if the price is having my daughter wrapping in my arms.. :)

Mother's love? I truly believed that.. !!

See ya Brenda!

xoxo

Wearing Contact Lenses...yeay!

Hola Soulsista..

I'm such a late bloomer when it comes to contact lenses...*sue me...huhuh

Since 2004 when I was 20 years old... I've been trying and trying and trying to stuck-in lenses into my eyeball...

Funny? No it is NOT..not for me at least!! +_+

2004: One of my close friend was so into lenses , she had so many different colors, the colors mesmerized me. *very the jakun kan.

Blue, light blue, grey, hazel..you name it.. Hence, the mission and journey of me trying to be so-called-updated-hot-chick back then.. yes I used to be a god-damn-chick..*pat to myself...perasaann...but it was 10 years ago la kan..of course..!!


Well as expected , I failed BIG time.. bought it for nothing..cost me RM100ish just to do some experimental on me...I manage to put it..but with the help of people surrounding me..like Helloo..nak letak, panggil orang, nak cabut pun panggil orang? wat malu je.. !



So I gave up! and vouch to myself..

"No, Never will I touch this EVIL, FILTHY LENSES!"

hmm... more years to come......

2005 Still Vouching!

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2006 Yes I'm woman of word!

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2007 Yes I am!!

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2008------ Jeng jeng jeng!

In 2008....my housemate...(another influences) who is 3 years younger than me, whom I thought was just to fill up her boredom time..asking me to accompany her buying her new contact lenses. *So mak ikut jah...

Zapp!!!! *The sound of me getting new lenses.. boleh?

She managed to break my vouch by promising me to teach me how to use it in and out until I'm comfortable to do it all by myself.. and .. She bought it for me! Belanja okay...to show that she was really meant it helping me to go through this adventure.. *adventure kah?? hahah



Lil that I know....

SHE LIED...!! 

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THANKS BABE....

U JUST MANAGED TO BE THERE FOR ME ONLY FOR 24HOURS! *Cryyyy

So again, I did my 2nd so-called vouch! 

"I WILL NEVER USE, TOUCH, SMELL, LOOK AT THIS FILTHY LENSES..PUIHH"

Guess what... 

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I LIEDDDDD!!! AGAIN!!

November,2nd  2013 mark this date...!

Suddenly, I have this urge to transform myself..since you know 'what' has happening to me

With the help of my old friend, Shiwa... She helped me to get contact lenses and tought me all night long on how to wear it and she was  the only one who managed to convince me that :

"It is not A big deal touching your eye ball! It just like touching your skin or picking your nose!" LOL!

For almost one 2 days she helped me ..and me..staring at my big mirror poking my eyes,just to get used touching my eye ball..and.. finally!!... on 5th November, which yesterday, managed to do it all by myself!

I was sooo  HAPPY ..the feeling was like passing my SPM exam all over again!! *Yes, SPM was a nightmare to me...I got only 6A's .. hish!

Today, I went to my office and blinking my eyes so many times , just to make sure my officemate noticed my new iris color .. *gituu

"Wahh you got new eyeball issit???"

Thanks dude...of all word..u choose eyeball...its not just eyeball...its Cocoa Mocha !! Huh!

p/s:If you read this (you know who you are..) your actions  managed to push me to the edge and made me wearing contact lenses!.. I have encountered my fear factor which is touching my eyeball...Thank you for that..

See ya Brenda!

xoxo

Being a single mother... (1)

Hola soulsista,


I'm pretty harsh to myself when posted this blog.. I'm titling myself as a single mother.. but..

IT. IS. A. FACT... 

Crying like a river? --> Checked

Devastated? --> Checked

Zombie? --> Checked

Not eating?  --> Checked

Praying hard ?--> Checked

Fixing things? ---> Checked

In denial? ---> Checked

Everybody felt pity for me..yeah .. and honestly it makes me sick and embarrassed...enough of me being pity to myself..

Come to think of it..pity means that they could feel the sadness and trying at their best to show their concerns which I really need it during my early stage of devastation..

1st phase just passing by...

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Come 2nd phase..

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People keep asking me to work it out with the husband..

Who's on earth doesn't want to do that...?

I've tried.. but married to stone-cold heart guy..it is not easy..seriously  it.is.not.easy.. Tho I know he loves me..but his love towards me was not enough to bend his ego or his so-called-principle. He's willing to let me go and lives alone all by himself rather that fixing it between me , my family and his family..


He doesn't buy the thought of,

 " Marrying her, marrying her family"

For him.. He's only married to ME..my family doesn't include in his combo.. Hence, he didn't feel anything's wrong when he gave me an option,

"Either me or your family"

As a daughter ..first in the house.. and have had a history of tarnishing my family's name by eloping with him to Thailand (Yeah, in Thailand, and registered in KL afterwards).. I thought to myself..

"Enough of me breaking my family's heart...AGAIN"

I love him, I know both of us could work it out , sort things out cause both of us wanted to give a second chance to our marriage..

But,

I'm not ready to decide...with this condition.. 

and he just,

Being stone cold heart, impatient and couldn't wait for me..for him it is NOW or NEVER

I couldn't choose "NOW" and he gave me "NEVER"......

Am i devastated?
Obviously..felt like my head cracked whenever I cried..


Do I regret not choosing "NOW" when the offers still there.. ?
No answer for that..sometimes I do regret, sometimes I don't..cause why he's the only one who has right and should make the offer?  Marriage is all about compromising not dictating...


All I could do now is moving on, move forward, preparing myself to be a single mother


He once told me..I was too stubborn to follow his plan.. (which is choosing him and cut off my family)

Am I being stubborn? Am I considered traitorous, un-loyal wife?

I don't think so..I'm not choosing either options...cause I feel it is not right and irrational for me to be given that option...

I'M HUMAN.... 

I HAVE HEART...

I DON'T WANT TO BE STONE COLD HEART LIKE WHAT HE HAS...